new poem!!

hi!
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i'm just bored here right now....
so i made this new poem, i think it's pretty.
here it is:
maybe you'll never find true love
if that is the plan of the god you love
how can you worship a fickle god
one who doesnt appreciate your love

why do you pray when i'm right
i've held you close and dried your tears
but you cant see me standing here
i've waited by your side all these years


I seriously don't know what to do right now.
my friend said this once, and i think it's cool,read it:
"Love is nothing more than a razor we use to cut up our hearts, to leave them as scarred as our wrists is something some of us have learned to live with. There are those who would try to hide these marks they are those who continue to live a lie, you know who i mean, those who act as if their lives are so perfect and try to make themselves seem so much better than others. i say to them, cut the bulls**t and wear your scars proudly."

There is also another poem i made:
Your hair is not always in place,
your room is a mess,
you don't get high grades,
yes you are imperfect, that is why I fell in love with you...
Kiss me and you will see stars;
love me and I will give them to you.
He's always worth it.
The more I give to thee,
the more I have,
for both are infinite.


and another poem:
"she told me that she loved me
she told me that she cared
she said i was the only one for whom she ever cared
but it was all a lies
something never meant to be
love is not a cure
love is the disease"

and another poem:
"man my girl is trippin
god why cant she see
the love i felt for her
was not a fantasy
but now that i am gone she's blowin up my phone
pleading and beggin for me to come home
but the love i felt is gone
replaced with this dismall scene
one in which my death is a high reality
love is a disease that feeds on the soul of mankind
destroying all there is in life"

I like dem COOKIZ!!!

Haha, cookiz.haha X3

So now I'm bored. i was just here thinking about chocolawt cookiz. I don't know how to "spell". i do know how to spell but i wanna write like this.

haha,so cute.he made the gurl a cooki and ate it. and then sez sorry.hey,if anyone likes rock music or something, you guys should go to stereokiller.com.

it's awesome. You should check out the songs by "from first to last" and "silverstein".their good.

now i wanna talk about music.

i like the band medic droid, papa roach, silverstein,from first to last, and black veil brides. i like some others bands and singers but i'm too lazy to write them all.it's an awful lot of singers and bands.

i bet it's more than a mile and a half long. just jk(joking).jk means joking and lol means laughing out loud,obviously.and lmfao means laughing my a** off.but i don't cuss . I'm christian. so now im' bored again. i don't know wat 2 do. I was making this new poem, but i messed up so it's not a poem anymore.

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okaiiii............

im bored.

COOKIZ!!!

XD

BYE

My poetry

All of a sudden when i buy these lead pencils from Office Max, i have these ideas for poems. Yesterday i made three poems. here they are:
A Broken Heart
You ruined my heart,
you had to break it.
You say you still love me,
but you really fake it.
You say you need me,
but i know it's not true.
You pleadge i'm your only one,
but i don't believe you.
You hurt me so much,
i feel dead inside.
You look so happy,
but i barely feel alive.
I just want you to know,
you broke my heart.
Before it was perfect,
and now it's falling apart.

Missing
Where are you?
I don't see you.
I'm desperate,
right now i really need you.
Why are you not there when i'm in hell?
I scream 'til my lungs pop,
I suffer and yell.
And yet you don't here me.
Am i invisible, or you just don't see me?
Do i matter to you?
I don't know.
But i do know you don't love me anymore.
I have a hard life,
filled with sorrow and strife.
And yet you left and ditched me,and now you've gone missing.
So how can there be hope,
when i've lost my love and I'm left here to mope?
So i say goodbye,
And be here alone witing for my life to die.

And last but not least,
what love is...
How can i say I love you,
when I don't know what love means.
I've never met love in this world,
no matter how easy it seems.
Love is a feeling,
I've never met.
And I'm sure it's a feeling,
I'll never forget.
I've heard love is beautiful,
that it's like magic.
But when it ends,
everything turns tragic.
People suicide,
they cry and cry.
'Cuz they don't like it whe they have to say goodbye.
Others don't have that pain,
'cuz they have liberty.
But they see their love,
dying inside for eternity.
Most people say they feel dead inside,
because that person made them feel alive.
And now they say they feel like shit,
'cuz they were a love addict.
Damn those who hurt the people they love,
'cuz i promise I'll never do that,
My Love
and that's it.
but i also saw this poem my friend made:
your tears dont fall they crash around me
like the waves upon the sand
they break against me
battering my heart and shredding my soul
when will you learn to let me go
all these tears you cry at night
all the times we used to fight
hate destroyed the love we had
now all thats left is to pack your bags
i'm sorry that we have fallen apart
i want you to know you broke my heart

Awesome right?

Lonely...but not emo

Jeremiah sais he doesn't talk to me because he barely sees me,but when he does see me he doesn't say at least hi. It makes me mad.
>:(
now i'm just freaking lonely. All i have i now is my big bro(he's not my real big bro, at my school,some kids have "moms" and i have a "mom" i wont say her real name so lets call her meow cuz she always sais that. my "mom" is meow. and i was her first "daughter" and then came big bro,but im actually his "big sister" its just that he's so tall i call him big bro.
But yea, im just alone. i dont write much, i know that. and i really dont know why i have a blog then. But i like writing stuff. my friend saw this video online of these 7 year old girls dancing to the song "single ladies" by Beyonce. It was kinda cool. but right now I'm bored so I'mma stop writing and do something else.
so....
bye
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Broken Heart

I keep getting hurt. Jeremiah doesnt talk to me anymore. He hasnt talk to me for more than a week. People keep breaking there promises.



Everywhere i am, the people around go away. happens everytime. Then people say they like me.

It's just that im different. I even can't belive that i'm my mom's daughter. we're completely different. Everytime i dress up, she doesnt like what i put on and wants me to dress her way. She dresses me up like an old lady would dress. Even my aunt agrees. And my mom throws away everything.I don't wanna say anything more. I need to go.
L8R G8R

I have butterflies!!

Omg! I am so embarrassed!!! I saw Jeremiah at lunch today!!! So that means that only on 2,4,6 days on Wednesdays we have lunch at the same time. And a buddy of mine named Carlos embarrassed me by singing out loud that I like Jeremiah! I bet that put me back a day or two. It is so embarrassing. Then Michael asks me if I like Jeremiah. I wish that I didn’t have bad luck. And I sat with Jeremiah at lunch and said that it was kinda creepy that I don’t talk and just stare into space. But thank the lord that he thought it was funny not totally weird. On Friday, I’m gonna ask Jeremiah if he goes on gaiaonline.com. I’m going to give him the URL and tell him my username and how to add me. I’m also gonna tell him Michael’s username. I don’t like Hannah Montana but I like this verse in her song “he could be the one” and it goes like this:
And he got a way, of making me feel, like everything I do is, perfectly fine,
The stars are aligned when I’m with him,
And I’m so into him!!

Oops! Gotta go, But I’ll blog later.

Stuff...RAWR!!

So…hello, my nickname is Alex.my real name i Adolis,but yeah,you can call me alex. So, in this section of my blog, I’m going to talk about my life, like a journal. I’m going to talk about what I like, what I don’t like and etc. And occasionally, if I feel like it, I will randomly write about my problems. If anyone wants to help me with my problems, well…you can comment. This blog is the main section. You can’t know about me for real without reading this section. You can know what types of music I like, read my poems, but to really know my personality you have to read this section. And I will not answer inappropriate comments or anything like that, just so you know. I’m one of those people who are “weird in their own way”. I’m not weird weird I’m just normal but like to be random, you know what I mean. I have short (not that short) brown hair that seems reddish brown in the sunlight. I also have brown eyes that are so dark that they seem black. My skin is a light tan color. I like music (a lot!) and I wish for my very own mp3. I don’t know why a girl who likes music so much doesn’t have her own mp3. I like animals and sometimes I write my own poetry. i like this(but i didnt make it):
I’m trying not love you
I’m trying not to care
I’m not to live my life wishing you were there
I’m trying not to wonder where you are or what you do
I’m sorry I can’t help it
I fell in love with you
This poem is my favorite poem. I also like collecting pictures online, you know, like on Bing, and I add those pictures to my Photobucket. I like anime and I think Asian people are cool. I’m kinda good at drawing anime, but I’m still practicing. I like writing and being online. I kinda act emo. But for me to be completely emo, I need to cut myself, which will never happen. I like this guy that looks emo but isn’t emo. He’s fun to hang around with. He’s not exactly like my dream guy, because my dream guy is sensitive and has black emo looking hair and gray eyes. Jeremiah (let’s call him Jeremiah even though that’s not his name) has chocolate brown and black hair (his hair is not soft!) but I like him anyway. I like making bunnies:
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They are super cute. But my favorite animal is pandas.

So cute!!!
I’d like to keep writing but I got to go. I’ll continue some other time. Bye!!! XD